April 29, 2012

4.28.2012 oh.


I'm so sad. Yesterday we unexpectedly and suddenly lost my Dad. My heart is aching. It's been the hardest 3 days I've ever lived through. I feel so overwhelmed with emotion and disbelief that my Dad is gone and not coming back. I loved him so much, and I hope he knew I felt, and that I appreciated every thing he's ever helped me with, taught me to do..oh, I wish I had a chance to tell him. He was at work and had an aneurysm burst in his brain. The doctors think it was probably there his whole life. No one knew. I want him back. My Calleigh has an easter egg for him that he teased her for, he was supposed to be here right now building our new back yard with us. Now I don't want to do it, because I wanted us to do it together. Oh my god, how do I make this hurt stop?


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49 comments:

  1. Sarah, my heart breaks for you. I am so sorry you have to experience such a great loss. You will be in my thoughts. I too lost my dad - he was too young and still so full of life. May God bless you with comfort and surround you with the peace only He can give.

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  2. Oh Sarah :{ I am so sorry to read of your very sad news. I lost my father quite suddenly when I was 16 years old and whilst it was an extremely hard time for me and my family, I can promise you that with time, the pain does ease and it will get easier day by day. Hold on to your little ones, I'm sure they will give you all the strength you need to get through this tough time. Thinking of you... Son x

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  3. Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry. I cannot begun to understand your grief but have to admit I live in fear of losing my parents. All I can do is send you a big virtual hug. Thinking of you x

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  4. Sarah I am so very sorry to hear this. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I have not lost my parents, however I am a widow and lost my husband at a young age.

    Take good care..

    xoxo
    Karena
    Art by Karena

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  5. Oh Sarah! My heart is aching for you! I'm so sorry for you loss and your whole family is in my heart and in my thoughts right now. I can't even imagine how you must feel at this moment. Thinking about you!
    xx

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  6. Oh dear Sarah, how unbelievably sad, I am so very sorry for your sudden loss... I feel your pain and anguish.
    Please remember that he is now in paradise and will always be with you. You were truly blessed to have had Such a wonderful relationship wih him.
    I am sending lots of love nd prayers your way sweet friend... Hang in there and be strong for your girls.
    Much love,
    Terri

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  7. Oh dear Sarah, how unbelievably sad, I am so very sorry for your sudden loss... I feel your pain and anguish.
    Please remember that he is now in paradise and will always be with you. You were truly blessed to have had Such a wonderful relationship wih him.
    I am sending lots of love nd prayers your way sweet friend... Hang in there and be strong for your girls.
    Much love,
    Terri

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  8. Dear Sarah, I am so sorry to hear this terrible news. My heart truly hurts for you. I feel like there is no way to take the hurt away. Please don't feel like you should, it is ok to hurt. I am going to be praying for you and your family, that God may comfort you in this tough time. Big hugs,

    Nancy xoxox

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  9. i didn't know how i would be able to go on when my dad died. it does get easier but i never stop missing him. i hope that you can find comfort in whatever way you see fit. my faith in god and the knowledge that we will be reunited one day brings me peace. i am so sorry.

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  10. I am so sorry to hear about your dad. Thinking of you and your family during this time....

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  11. Oh Sarah, I'm so so sorry..I know there is nothing I could say to make you feel better, but you and your family will be in my prayers.

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  12. I am so sorry Sarah...you and your family are in my prayers... xoxoxoxo

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  13. I am so sorry to hear of this sad news. My condolences go out to you and your family. Thinking of you!

    xo
    Nicolle
    Jack & Salma

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  14. I'm so sorry to hear this Sarah. You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  15. Sarah, I hear your sadness and ache - I'm so, so sorry. It seems so unfair to have him be there one day and gone so suddenly the next. May your memories bring you comfort in the days ahead.

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  16. oh my gosh, I'm so incredibly sorry... huge virtual hugs and kisses

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  17. So sorry! Only time will lesson the pain. My first husband lost his Dad to the same thing. They had a disagreement before that happened, and he never could forgive himself. He has managed to deal with it now, it has been over 10 years. Good luck to you!

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  18. I am so sad for you and your family! You just reminded how precious every sinle minute is. Big hugs and prayers.

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  19. Oh Sarah, I am so sorry for you and your family. Of course your dad knew he was loved and I'm sure he's very proud of you. I will be keeping you all in my prayers this week. xoxo

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  20. Sarah,
    I am so,so very sorry for you and your family. I cannot imagine how difficult these days are for you. I will hold you and your family in my prayers.

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  21. Dear Sarah,
    I offer all of my love and prayers to you and your family. I can not fathom the pain you're going through. May you be surrounded with love and support in this most difficult time.
    Sincerely,
    adoring blog reader

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  22. Sarah...I am hurting for you and your family. I lost my Dad when I was 40 very unexpectedly from a heart attack. It rocked my world. I seriously thought I would never get over it. Please know you are in my thoughts....and I hope and pray that you will find some peace in the coming weeks. I know I speak for everyone...that I wish there were words to help.

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  23. I've been reading you blog for a while now, but never really felt the need to comment.

    I'm very sorry about the loss of your precious & beloved father. No one will ever love you the way he did, and that makes the ache so much harder. My mother, who was my best friend, died unexpectedly in a car accident nearly 5 years ago when I was 21. I know the pain and anguish you feel.

    You won't ever forget him and you won't ever "get over" his unexpected death, but life does go on and you eventually learn to live with the grief. Right now it's going to hurt. Your heart is going to hurt. But that's just the beginning, eventually the pain will dull and from time to time you'll forget it's even there.

    If you believe in heaven or the afterlife, then take comfort in knowing you will see him again, when the time comes...I'm still waiting to see my mom.

    My thoughts are with you & your family.

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  24. Sarah I'm so so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now but sending prayers and virtual hugs your way!

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  25. Sarah,
    I am so sorry to hear this. I lost my dad when I was 19. It is hard but it will just take time. Lean on your family and friends and let them help you when you are having a bad day. I will keep your family in my prayers.
    Jordin

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  26. Oh Sarah,

    I'm so sorry to read this. I keep thinking how we emailed this weekend during all of this. I wish I had something to say or do to make it better, I can't imagine.

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  27. Sarah,

    I just can't stop thinking about you. My heart aches for you, I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. You are such a strong, motivated, caring, and thoughtful person that even a stranger can recognize. I am sure your dad was incredibly proud to call you his daugther! Sending my love you way.

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  28. Oh my goodness Sarah, my heart hurts for you. You and your family are in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  29. Hi Sarah,

    I've never read your blog before and clicked on the link from another blog. I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I lost my dad 16 years ago and he also had an aneurysm. I'll be thinking about you and your family during this time. Big hugs to you!!

    xo, Heather

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  30. I am here for you, my dear friend, any time of day if you need me. My heart breaks for you and your family and I am so, so sorry for your huge loss. xoxoxo

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  31. Sarah I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  32. I'm so sorry for your loss, Sarah. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  33. Sarah,
    I'm so sorry you and your family are going through the tragic loss. I pray that God will comfort you and give you peace in the sad time.

    Jess

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  34. Sarah, I am so sad for you. I lost my sweet brother unexpectedly and I know the shock and disbelief that you are going through. All I can say is cry when you want to, be sad, be angry...it's ok. And time does heal, it wont make it go away but You will feel peace and happiness. My thoughts are with you. Hugs.

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  35. I am so sorry, Sarah. I can't even imagine how painful this sudden loss is. Praying for you and your family.

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  36. Sarah, words can't even express what you're going through. Your family and friends will help you through this. I am so very sorry, Sarah.

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  37. Oh, Sarah, I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I only wish I had something comforting to share during this tough time. Thinking of you and your family right now!

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  38. Sarah, I am so sorry for your loss. I've admired your work for some time now and I've been remiss in paying you due compliments...I just couldn't not reach out now after reading this post. I will pray for you and your family.

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  39. Sarah, I'm so sad & sorry for your loss. Sending thoughts of strength, love & healing to you & your family. x

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  40. Sarah, I'm so sorry for your loss, your father sounds like an incredible human being. Sending many prayers for your family.

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  41. Oh Sarah... I am so sorry for your loss. I know that your dad is smiling down on you. You and your family are certainly in my prayers... xo, Tiffany

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  42. Sarah, I'm so sorry for your loss. It hurts to read the pain in your words. I too lost my father unexpectedly when I was 17. I used to cringe when people would tell me that time heals all wounds because I could not imagine the pain ever going away. So many years have passed and I can tell you now that thankfully it does become easier. Thinking of you and your family.

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  43. I'm so so sorry for your loss. Prayers for you and your family

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  44. Sarah, so sorry for you and your family for your loss. He knew, don't you even doubt that, I am sure he was so prud of you. And i bet he too wished he would of said he was more often. Take care and take the time you need to heal.

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  45. I am so sorry to hear this! I lost my dad 12 years ago and I know how you are feeling. It's devastating! His death was also very unexpected. My thoughts and prayers goes to you and your family to have the strength to get through this.

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  46. I am so so sorry to read this news. Just know you will be in my prayers.

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  47. I am so incredibly sorry to hear about the loss of your father. Please know that one of your readers is thinking about you and will be praying for you and your family.

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  48. oh im so terribly sorry. I ran across your blog and somehow was drawn to the picture and read what happened. Im so sorry...I can feel your pain through you're writing.

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